You don't always get what you
want, in fact most of the time one might complain how things never go their way
but if looked upon from another perspective, you might actually understand that
with every bit of light taken away from you, a part of darkness goes away too.
One of my best friends got
nikkah-fied and I wasn't able to be a part of her big day. The ceremony was in
the country I'm currently staying though another city, but going was possible...I've
been planning on what to wear and how to go from about 12 months and in the end
things came up and I missed it.
The time when I was told I won't
be able to attend the event at 1pm next day, I couldn't stop crying and being
angry at all those who made it less possible... I remember clearly spending the
entire class crying and the following night sulking, was rude to almost
everyone who talked to me [and I apologize now] and hated every bit of my life.
It was a moment when everything and everyone was just another thing and person
I wish didn’t exist, seemed like my life ended and I had no purpose to live: p I
couldn’t think of a time when I was any more depressed and I kept justifying my
absurd behavior by telling myself and other how important it was for me to go
and how I’ve been working and thinking on it ever since I came to know!
During those funny hours when I
was on my bed in an insanely dramatic pose sobbing and sniveling about how
unfair life is and how the world came down crashing in the blink of an eye,
wondering how happy I used to be and thinking of myself as a tragic phenomenon
of this century; I failed to realize how immature and typically juvenile I was
being. A few hours later when the night passed and I got to see faces of the
few people I love and my day started as routine and things seemed pretty much
normal, when I could actually ‘think’ and life wasn’t after all ‘dark and
gloomy’ I realized how all my friends made an effort to cheer me up, not to
mention I didn’t miss any chance to exploit it and even though they knew it ,
each one of them kept being incredibly adoring and exceedingly caring, you guys
didn’t make it so obvious, it is understood when you do something even though
everybody knows how much you hate to.
Anyway the purpose of writing all
of this was just to express how much I appreciate my life; you’ll find many
reasons as well, you only have to look for it! Life is indeed overrated, it
always has the best for you, and all you need is a new perspective J
